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and knew me and loved me and He thought I was okay, even if somebody else said I wasn't. OOOI came to wish with all my young heart that I could be the same person on the outside as I was on the inside, just be me, the way God saw me, and that would be okay with everybody else. But I didn't dare. To tell the truth, a few decades have gone by and I'm still trying to do that. The simplest truth at the bottom of all truths is that we all want to be who we really are, but for all of us, children and adults too, it's hard to know what that is, because most of the people in our world want us to be everything else but that.
When we were first learning about what life was like, and what we were supposed to be, we each got taught a system of well-meaning lies, like, "You're not as smart... You're not as pretty... You're not good enough unless... And worst of all, "You can't do that, you can't BE that,”and “You shouldn't want that, because..." These lies became the rules that were supposed to protect us from some kind of problems and sufferings the grownups had experienced in their lives. But their lives are not our lives. Without even realizing it, we accepted those things as true. They embedded into our trusting young minds and became the unconscious core-beliefs that would shape us and limit us and hold us hostage for a lifetime. We tried to live by the rules, we didn't know that some of them were never true in the first place.
If we don't unlearn the untruths, we can't become who we are meant to be. We will hide our light, whatever it is. We won’t be able to live our authentic life, which is what every living soul sincerely longs for. We knew this somehow, even when we were children, but we thought we must be wrong.
The beliefs people taught us were things they thought were true. They might have been true for them at the time, but many of their beliefs likely were never true for us. I suspected right from the start that some of them were not true for me, didn't you? But I had to live a long time before I realized it: The basic soul-work for all of us is to discover and then unlearn our untruths. Finding and claiming what is true for us, now. When we know the truth, it really can make us free.
No matter what anybody told you anytime back then, or anybody tells you now, you do have the right to be who you honestly are, and that real-you is actually much stronger, braver, and more wonderful than you think. If you want to know who you really are, don't ask anybody. Don't look "out there." Don’t look in the mirror. Throw out all the filters, all the shoulds and can'ts, and then look inside, and believe what you see. That’s who you are.
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